Sunday, December 5, 2010

i bought newspapers for ten dollars

at cvs this morning i paid $10.00 for two newspapers.
i took the book review out of the Times and slid it into my purse for later.
after 3/4's of a bottle of carmenere and a few cigarettes
i read it cover to cover.
except the paperback best sellers.
i did it.
i read the book review.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

finding roots

photos albums strewn.
emotions thick with dust stir.
its me in all those photographs. in all those places far and long away.
i have been here hidden under layers of loss. retreating from myself and who i have become.
or who i have said i am.
a smile crosses my heart as i realize that i have me. that perhaps i am not lost.
or forgotten.
that i have the parts to put me back together.
that the roots of me are still alive. dormant but alive.
i have only to give them nutrients and i will begin to grow.
once again blossom.
and this time, i will not push myself into what i think i am. i will feel my way tentatively as a root slowly unfurls its awesome potential into new thick soil.

Sunday, November 28, 2010

once a month

my thoughts make it onto a page.
not often enough.
with no cohesion or context. they float. from me into oblivion.
with no one to read or understand them i wonder of purpose. and intent.
as if perhaps a story may emerge withering on the white of the page.
a thread i can follow. or pull out of seam in my consciousness.

Monday, November 1, 2010

i've been waking up in the morning saturated by her presence in my dreams. and yet i haven't kissed her.

Monday, October 18, 2010

me against the world

thinkin bout organizin a union.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Thank You to Chief Judge Vaughn R. Walker!

For recognizing that California's prop 8 violated the Constitution's guarantee of equal rights for all Americans.

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

tuesday afternoon: who knows...

a sky swollen with the possibility of rain.
i feel it in the breeze and the scent taunts my nostrils.
i should water the new rose bush anyway.

Monday, August 2, 2010

in the midst of stabilizing my broken heart i distract myself

with the past.
pulling the weeds in my veggie garden.
painting the kitchen yam!
pickling.
sewing projects: curtains and perhaps a dress.
the calm of waves on my toes and sun on my skin.
all so i don't think of her with some other woman.

Monday, January 11, 2010

converted

to orange juice without pulp.
almost creamy.
delicious.
i am a convert

Friday, January 8, 2010

with out the hullabaloo of a new year

still our thoughts move towards the ideas of new beginnings.
the most important being awareness. without it i find no inspiration.
so i am committing to reading.
literature
newspapers
blogs
history (especially important)
anything and everything else.
coupons are hilarious and occasionally useful
as i live this commitment i find that another buds.
writing.
to document experience is vital. so that there may be more to read.
in knowledge that change is vital to success on our planet.