Sunday, December 5, 2010

i bought newspapers for ten dollars

at cvs this morning i paid $10.00 for two newspapers.
i took the book review out of the Times and slid it into my purse for later.
after 3/4's of a bottle of carmenere and a few cigarettes
i read it cover to cover.
except the paperback best sellers.
i did it.
i read the book review.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

finding roots

photos albums strewn.
emotions thick with dust stir.
its me in all those photographs. in all those places far and long away.
i have been here hidden under layers of loss. retreating from myself and who i have become.
or who i have said i am.
a smile crosses my heart as i realize that i have me. that perhaps i am not lost.
or forgotten.
that i have the parts to put me back together.
that the roots of me are still alive. dormant but alive.
i have only to give them nutrients and i will begin to grow.
once again blossom.
and this time, i will not push myself into what i think i am. i will feel my way tentatively as a root slowly unfurls its awesome potential into new thick soil.