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nothing comes out of my head.   i walked in hopes of igniting a thread.  but i cannot tease any cohesive thought from within my body.  i have been looking: in my heart, my mind, even my dreams and nothing has lasted long enough for me to feel it.

reeling in the eye of a storm.  as if everything is about to click into place, but there is the other half of the storm to live through before it shifts.  this is what decision making feels like?

i must delve into my imagination for the inspiration and reliance i need to make this happen.  it will be strength of heart and forgiveness that will get me in the dirt.  so i pull my shoulders back, lift my gaze, and open my heart.  i am going to find my way.