Recap. Synopsis. Window into life...

I have rhubarb tequila infusing in my pantry.  I have a yarrow waiting to be planted in the front garden.  I have dreams bigger than ever before and I have a hair appointment after I bust my ass at the gym.  I am planning on buying a seltzer maker this afternoon.  If I didn't know better one would think I had grown up.

not so good with passwords

because every damn thing requires one.
i just want to order a pair of shoes but i have to create an account and come up with a password.
then you change it cant remember the new one.  don't know the answer to your secret question.
who is my older brother?
god forbid if you changed your email account...
then you're fuct!
so...i struggle through with a variety of crutches and come up with a few variations and then....
i get hacked and my life turns upside down.
and really all i wanted was to buy a goddamn pair of shoes on line!

2 1/2

afraid and excited. been a hurricane on a sailboat and i still seem to be reeling.

one foot in front of the other. i laugh at everything. it hurts less that way.

a large pair of scissors to trim my heart and all its strings.

in their place i am growing flowers. buds swollen with a promise for me.

I guess the lesson I am to learn for forty nine thousand times is that you got to go through the crazy to know what you know.

It is the swing of the pendulum that informs the center of gravity.

Confused

So....

Ever had one of those days when you thought you knew what you were getting into when you woke up and then the day just hits you from left field?

Almost like getting slapped in the face by a 18 wheeled truck.

My life seems to be like that a lot lately. I wake up ready to deal with what I have thought about before I fell asleep and then something else seems to arrive, bigger and more difficult.

I have the digits on my arm to remind myself that I can do it. I have two weeks under my belt to bolster my confidence, but it still seems that I trip a bit before I find my stride.

And then I read the book review and get depressed about the state of our nation. Hermits might have the right idea.

I am a believer in every thing we do has a consequence. Our actions are real and can have impact. We are responsible for ourselves on this planet and more importantly within this society. Our minds are needed, and our hearts are capable of compassion because the earth does not spin otherwise. Let us remember that. Even in the confusion of depression and barely getting by.

A lovely Sunday Afternoon

After work all morning,

I have Bessie Smith on, a cup of peppermint tea. Wash drying on the porch. And a canned peaches and green tomato salsa in the pantry.

I am feeling pretty relaxed. Salad for dinner, and the Book Review for dessert.

Day One

Here Goes!

Starting my Cleanse today. My liver is gonna be so happy. It deserves some tender loving care after all the hard work I put it through.